It may be because I am going though a difficult time right now, but I am having a hard time reading other people's regular blogs and all about how damn "happy" they are. What a load of crap! No body is that freakin' happy and blissful all of the time. Which is why I come here and let my true self out....
Even though my regular blog is private, I do let some outbursts out. Nothing along the lines of what I am dealing with right now because I seriously do not need my friends and family to know what is going on behind these walls. But even then, I do let a little more of my "true" self out in the blog than some people and their stupid happy blogs. I find it annoying and so I read very few of them. But even my friends and family can annoy me sometimes with how all happy they are. Or at least convey to be.
But I am having a hard time writing anything on my regular blog right now. Even the good things or good times. And then I get hounded by people asking why I am not updating my blog. Well, it's because my life sucks right now and am going through something wildly difficult and unimaginable and am having a bit of a hard time finding the joy in all of this.
I'm just going to go sit under my little black rain cloud now. I kinda like it there....
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i hope it bring some comfort to you to read all the Constance blogs and to know people are not that happy ALL the time. i keep my public blogs very happy because it's the one my family reads and i want them to see the good that goes on, not my ranting about diapers and poop and stuff. that's why i love being able to vent here.
sometimes we have to take a break from blogging. maybe put up a vacation sign and take a break.
hope you are hanging in there as well as you can. =)
I'm right there with you. I struggle with weight and hating my job. some of which I put on my blog. I'm worried about the state of my marriage and why I think some of it might be normal, I don't date write all about it on the blog as too many people in real life read it. AND, I can't stand to read about how fucking fasntastic everyone else's marriage is ALL THE DAMN TIME. Hang in there. You are so not alone.
One of the reasons I like my Constance blog is that I can say the things that I don't want to hurt my family with. That is, they WANT to think I'm happy, and so I don't like to stress them out with unhappy stuff. But on the Constance blog, I can say anything.
I've written on my regular blog maybe four times in the past 2 months. I don't have much positive to say. So, otherwise I probably look like I have sunshine shining out of my butt when that is NOT the case. Not even close. Come to my apartment and see how not close.
Sorry that you're struggling.
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