So Do I Have a Job or Not?

A few weeks ago, I made the decision to no longer be a stay at home mom and to go and get a job. But I didn't just want any job; I want a job that I wanted to do. It was a tough decision and I second guess it all the time, but I just feel like I am ready and need to get out of the house and do something more than "just" be a mom. I am so sick and tired of it; I don't enjoy it and I want something more from life than just being a slave, maid, chauffeur, cook, referee, etc, and not get paid for it.

I was lucky enough to find a company hiring in the field that I want to be in. A fairly big company that comes with a bunch of perks. So I applied. 2 weeks ago. And I still haven't heard anything back yet. It's driving me crazy. I REALLY want this job, more than anything right now and not knowing if I have it or not is very frustrating for me.

So I called the recruiting number today that I had to call after I put my application in online and was told by the nice man that if a senior recruiter wants me for the job, they will contact me. But if not, they will keep my application on file. FOR 6 MONTHS! And they could contact me at anytime during that 6 months and let me know that they want me. Are you freakin' kidding me!?! Am I just suppose to wait around for 6 months to see if they want me? It gets even more confusing because there is another job available in the same field that I could get, but it's not exactly what I want. But in order to get it, I would have to call in some favors and I'm not sure if I want to do that yet. And knowing my luck, I would do that and then get the call from this other company that they want me. I just really want this job so bad, I could cry. It's really too bad that patience isn't one of my virtues. Guess I just have to take a seat on the "Wait & See Train." I hate that train.