The Go-To Person

I've been going through a rough time lately and don't know quite how to deal with it. I am really hating being a stay at home mom; I'm sick of my husband; and in general, I'm disappointed with the life I have chosen for myself. Not that the grass is greener on the other side (not married and/or working), mind you but as it is, I just don't like where my life is right now and want something different. I'm burned out with the kids and the house and just want something more that what I have. I just don't know what that is. But the real problem I am having is that I feel like I've got no one to talk to about it. I always feel like I am the "go-to" friend that everyone comes to when they need something or want to talk. And now that I'm the one who needs that friend to understand and help out, no one seems to notice or have time. It's like standing in a crowded room screaming and no one is noticing me. It's just the same as being a room alone. And that's quite how I feel right now: alone. And yet, I still have to be there for them. It's what I do and what they have come to expect. I've never really minded until now.